Monday, January 7, 2019

Talking About It

Hey there,

So today I made it to the last possible showing of Anthropocene at the AGO. It was very good. I'm going to look into seeing the film tomorrow night.

And after the exhibition I ended up telling my good friend and my other partner about my fresh go at a year of not buying anything new - in a sort of round about fashion. I had been avoiding actually declaring it aloud to others. I did make sure I squeaked in under the wire letting my wife know the day before new years so it would not come as a big surprise to her. I guess I have been keeping my cards a bit close to my chest, not really mentioning it a lot, and I'm wondering what that is about.

Part of it is about the fact that some people like it and some people not so much. Also, there is the piece of me that worries that it's sort of 'old news', as I did this nine years ago and people might find it boring or repetitive. That is the pathological part of me that over cares what people think! Also, part of me feels like it might be premature to shout it from the roof tops when I have so little time under my belt yet this year, and I kind of rushed into deciding to do it without a lot of time to mull it over, and chat with people about it beforehand etc. These factors combine to make me feel oddly a little shy about the subject. I also think about how much mindless shopping I've done since that year. Ugh. But, perhaps I can comfort myself that it is much less than it would have been had I not had the one year moratorium on shopping.

The other thing is that I faded out of focusing on it in the months after my big year of nothing new in 2010. I don't want that to happen this time. So maybe I should keep talking about it and making it more and more real.

It feeds into good things in my life. Feeling a general sense of control and a handle on things. Beyond financial, it creates momentum, time, and space for me to do that with my stuff too. I've started pruning and purging and feeling more lightness. Today I organized the long suffering freezer contents. Awaiting canonization...  I also plowed through six drawers and a shelf in the spare room and walked out two more bags of donations. I watched another episode of Marie Kondo Netflix show last night and today have been listening to my minimalism book on audio as I purge. It's so peaceful! The show last night was kind of interesting where this guy who had soooo much stuff yet was having a hard time getting rid of things had an epiphany. We saw his mindset shift to now second guessing every item, 'Why do I need to hang on to this? Is this really necessary?' Pretty much opposite to before where he had an emotional rationale for keeping every single thing.

Well, it's time for me to wind down and get a good night's sleep so I can face the rigours of my first day back at work tomorrow. It's a doozy with me needing to hit the ground running with multiple orientations and assessments. It has been really amazing having a sweet chunk of low key time off at and around home, to just be and have some personal time. Not to mention all that amazing social connection I got to enjoy :)

Nighty night,

xo
Tara

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